I have been battling to blog lately as I am really battling to put my feelings into words.
I also feel that my general mood is very bland, (like vegatable stock) and I don’t want to end up blogging about the same pain and grief continuously. It’s tiring!
I know I can if I want to, but I just don’t feel like saying the same thing over and over again. I’m only going to blog about it if it is a new feeling or ‘A ha!’ moment. I can pretty much assure you that I am not 100% yet and I don’t really know how long it will take for me to get there, but I don’t want to talk about it here anymore, at least for the moment.
I have made a few decisions about my FET. I have decided that I’ll definately do it an October transfer- IF I CAN. The IF I CAN part relates very strongly to how our business is doing. I don’t think that it is sensible to do an FET unless I know that we have secure business for 2010. If the business was going really really well and the choice was completely up to me I would do the FET next month. However, in these trying times I need to be responsible and face certain realities.
So FET is on hold for the moment.
Until then I shall be blogging about whatever comes to my mind. In fact I may change the subject a little. 
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Good to hear from you again, I do often think of you and how you are doing. Its ok to still be sad, I mean Im STILL sad and my m/c was over a year ago.
I know what you mean when you say that you dont feel like writing the same things over and over, I feel the same and somehow words dont do justice to the feelings in my head and heart.
Take your time and be kind to yourself but I promise it does get better. We will be here for you all the way.
xxx
Thinking of you always my friend. Take some time to be good to yourself first and foremost, the rest of the decisions will fall into place sooner or later.
xxx
*hug* I look forward to reading whatever you feel like blogging about.
FET’s on hold for you & me both, other priorities and not the right head space here too.
Hang in there Sian!
You can only do, or say or write what you can when you can – trust yourself to get through this period of healing as time is such a wonderful healer. And when you are ready, the rest falls into place. Sending you loads of love and light xxx