537!!!!!

Just got the call.
My 5th beta is 537.
I just don’t know what to think anymore.
The clinic told me not to get excited yet.
So I am not.
I have to go in for another beta and scan on Monday. Hold thumbs, pray, do what ever you can.
This may be a miracle baby.

Confusion

Well here is my update……
Yesterday I went for my fourth beta and it doubled!
So it has gone like this.
20 April Beta one – 63
24 April Beta two – 111
26 April Beta three – 136
28 April Beta four- 262 (I expected it to go down here)
My doctor said these words to me, which made me feel [...]

Crappy birthday to me….

Well, I can safely say that yesterday was one of the sadest days of my life. We had the beta first thing in the morning.
I knew from by the way we were called through that it was not good news.
136 from 111.
Dr J came up to talk to us and basically told us that there [...]

Beta number two :-(

What a day. I feel exhausted!
After wrinting this post I am going to go and have a nice relaxing bath.
Bad news: My beta is only 111 from 63 on Monday.
According to the clinic it was supposes to double and then double again. So we were hoping for about 250. Murphy’s Law, I get the news [...]

Yesterday.

To ICLW readers: This post is about the feelings I experienced yesterday when I got my first BFP.I truely understand if it is not for you at this time.
So I seem to have started to realise that this is not just a dream. Yesterday was the wierdest, happiest, scariest day I have ever [...]

BFP!

I’m speechless!!!
Thank-you Lord!
My beta is 62.

Update…

So I did it! I POAS!
And there was a faint second line.
I am going to ask if I can do my beta today?
Will be calling VL after nine.
Will keep you posted.

CRAP STATION!

FUCK! A tiny amount of brown blood.
I really really hate this!
Phoned Vitalab and they say it is too early for a urine, but maybe tomorrow.
My mom reckons I should just go for the bloods early.
I think I might POAS…..What do you think?

8dp3dt

Urgh! Tick tock tick tock tick.
I really wish I could see what was going on in there.
The crap thing is that now I am on the fence. I am still optimistic, but with a touch of reality.
I know it could be a BFN, but when I think about that option I start to crumble inside. [...]

The Boogy song for the day.

Another boogy feel good song! Enjoy!