Right the tears have finally arrived and I feel like a TOTAL cry baby.
It seems that I have lost my backbone and so my standard response is tears!!! This has lead me to frustration with myself, as I feel like a weakling that can’t handle anything. I tried to hold them in yesterday when I got the news that A MAJOR client has decided to visit us for a recruitment trip on the 23 DECEMBER!!!! Firstly this is right in the middle of my leave….and secondly most of our candidates will be away on holiday so the response is going to be very low. Plus how the hell am I supposed to find a venue now for that date!!! AAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHH!!!! I have adviced them to come at a later date….but who knows if they actually will.
So I pulled into my garage yesterday in TEARS (the ugly cry kind) My husbands response was to beg me to pls sort out what is bugging me. I really feel for the guy. I was in tears most of last week too. We went for a nice long walk to get some exercise and then had a very early night.
So I woke up feeling alright this morning. Until my brother phoned me to tell me how cute on of our friends babies is. (He was born yesterday) My reponse …….tears!!!!
So what is my problem!!!
Am I under too much pressure at work. Or am I (once again) mourning my infertility.
I really hate this feeling……my wonderful bestest friend has adviced me to take Friday off.
SIGH!!
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Oh Sian. Why are there so many of us on such major downers at the moment? I think it may also have to do with that time of year, another festive season spent Christmas shopping for other people’s children and not our own. Another year passing without seeing our dream of motherhood fufilled.
Don’t be so hard on yourself, if the emotion needs to come out then let it, don’t keep it in as it only makes it worse.
Hang in there Skat!
(((Hugs)))
I’m sorry you’re feeling so down of late Sian. It is this time of year – it is tough! I say let the tears flow (I wish I could do that, really!) cos you obviously need to let them out.
Maybe a day off on Friday is not a bad idea? YOu can veg at home with a book or sleep or pamper yourself with a manicure or something?
Take care of yourself!
HUGS
xxx
I think you might be putting too much pressure on yourself, as well as mourning your infertility. The last year, and every year we battle this thing is hard on a person. Be kind to yourself and I agree with Sam, let the tears flow. It offers great relief! Hope you feel better soon, and I hope your client agrees to a later date. You need your leave.
I’m so sorry this time of year is espeically hard on us!